The title of this post came from a journal one of my roommates got me for Christmas. Today's been hard to follow that rule. I skipped every class I had including my lab. I just didn't have the motivation or the mental capacity to take today in. Days like these are hard. They are so discouraging but then my daily devotional (out of Jesus Calling) said this,
"Anything that tends to make you anxious is a growth opportunity. Instead of running away from these challenges, embrace them, eager to gain all the blessings I have hidden in the difficulties."
It was just a beautiful reminder that even though today was rough there's still good in it and to not give up. I know irony, considering I gave up this morning and skipped class.I guess I should have read my devotional first thing today. But there's blessings all around me I just have to open my eyes and change my perspective to see them. If anything today I learned to be better prepared for my classes. Lesson learned. I am not in a place where I can just give up this semester and I refuse to let giving up become my mentality.
I am not giving up on school. I am not giving up on believing that I will get out of this depression. I am not giving up on my faith. I am going to use these situations to lean on my wonderful father who is holding not only me but the entire world in his hands. There's a magnificent God so why would I give up on this life he has blessed me with. He never said it'd be easy, but he's leading me so that when I stumble I have a hand to hold that will keep me from falling.
He has me. I am his.
I love this Kali. It's fully of hope :)
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